"I once had a sparrow alight upon my shoulder for a moment... and I felt that I was more distinguished by that circumstance than I should have been by any epaulet I could have worn." -Thoreau

Thursday, December 27, 2012

From a Lady to her Love, Expressing Sincere Regret

Dear Blog Of Mine,

    It is true that I have neglected you awfully. This I cannot deny, and I extend my most heartfelt apologies. When we began this relationship I vowed to treat you with affection and consideration. Yet with the passing of time I have allowed greater and greater distances to come between us. From once every few days to once a week to once every two weeks, it seems I am now down to visiting you once every two months. I am truly sorry.
    But, I plead you, you must not think this means that I do not love you. I have not come to see you, I have not sent word of my love, I have given you no sign of my affection or reason to believe in my devotion to you, but I swear that I have thought of you often.
    Yes, frequently have I found little pieces of life bringing me back to memories of you, despite the great distance between us and my voyages in foreign lands. Many times in the course of the last two months have I contemplated what I would say to you, how I would greet you upon our reunion, how I would devise some brilliant idea and present it to you for your admiration.
    Alas, no brilliant idea ever came. It is true, I was distracted, and I let time slip from my hands. I began to grow ashamed. I knew that I needed to see you, I yearned to return to you, but how could I face you as I was, shamefully tardy and embarrassingly empty-handed?
    However, I could wait no longer. I realize that I have been too far for too long, and despite the fact that I return unworthy of your attention, I wish for you to know that my affections have remained constant.
    I do not expect you to believe hollow words. It is not enough to utter statements of love and devotion, for these are empty if they remain unbacked. What can it mean to tell you that I love you, if that statement is the only reason you have to believe that it is so?
    Therefore, I do not propose to fill your head with empty words. Instead, I seek simply to love you. I hope that, if not your affection or esteem, I may at least earn your forgiveness along the way.

I assure you, I hope to remain yours, &c.
    A. Martin